Friday, October 17, 2014

What does Mary know?

A Pilgrimage.
Tomorrow, I will travel with a friend to see the Cathedral Basilica of St. Anthony in Beaumont, Texas.  It is just a small pilgrimage in the middle of my semester of studying more chemistry and math.  So I will offer this travel for God's will in what I study and for my efforts in that.
Knowing little, loving more.
But more so, I want to offer all things for the Sacred Heart of Christ.  Jesus Christ loves before we know.  Most of us, don't know until we are older, and wiser.  When I say know,  I mean all kinds of knowing.  What's really cool is that Jesus does 'know'.  Of course he knows, and is all-knowing, but for every individual heart there is a call and a path that Jesus knows.
For my sake,  I am interested in following that path which he knows I will follow.  Good or bad, I hope it leads me closer to him.  When I veer off slightly, Our Lady lovingly guides me back.
What does Mary know?
I tend to turn to Mary, Queen of the Universe when my own doubts assail me because she is my first mother.  I love her dearly and she has graciously accepted me as her child.  But she also knows.
She knows that Jesus Christ and the Trinity has overcome the world.  The world which wants to tear up our sense of knowing Christ.  The world that wants to twist our thoughts to relativism and immorality.
Mary, Ark of the Covenant has known from the moment of her fiat, that Jesus Christ, the Son of God is the answer.  He is more powerful than any Earthly thing.  More powerful than bosses, stress, maliciousness, ignorance and more powerful than the fall of sin.
Mary, the Theotokos, has knowledge that whatever my faith, work or efforts done with the love of the Sacred Heart of Christ, will be worthy in their small way.
As the Theotokos, she has known when I will need her and how my journey will go tomorrow.
Repentance.
I am always thinking that to fast and repent for my sins is a good thing.  Jesus knows my faults.  Our Lady knows my faults.  Both draw me close and embrace in the love of God the Father.  I really don't need to 'know'.  I just need to have faith and put more work into that faith that Mary and Jesus will be with me every step of the way.

Thursday, August 21, 2014

The New War

The new war is not a war of ground forces or air strikes. The new war is to turn others away from love by twisting truth. One can ask how do we fight against moral evils in our world from our pulpit be it lonely or crowded?
The righteous are the ground forces of God and the angels His backup airstrikes.  We can call upon them and act ourselves with temerity and boldness in the footsteps of Christ.
It scares me to see the cruelness that humans inflict upon others, but prayer changes things.
Prayer has the power to reach the most hardened heart. The weakness that is the faithful, is the scourge of the evil. Through dying he restored our life. We can fight by our meekness and generosity to give of ourselves and let the Holy Ghost guide us on the path of teaching love to others.

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Approaching the Precipice

Three weeks until I finish my career as a teacher.  I have many thoughts and opinions on the years but I would like to share a few reflections.

First, it takes an amazing person to be a teacher. I have interacted with many different teacher personalities and the first priority is always the children.  You have those teachers that complain and grumble or don't show for duty, but they do care.  Teachers have become the father, mother and sometimes friend that children need in this changing world.  It is very hard to be a teacher and I bet everyone one of them looks back at the end of each school year and says 'how did I make it through?'.

Secondly, I have learned so much. I see awesome teachers and know I could bump up my skills and be more compassionate, but then I think of how far I have come.  God has used this profession to really burn away poor characteristics and helped me prepare for this harsh world.  Nothing helps you learn quick like ANY classroom of high school students.  I have been telling myself I should keep on in order to grow, but it's time to use my skills elsewhere.

Finally, I'm sure when I see yellow buses rolling in the fall again I'll have a twinge of nostalgia for the school room.  It will fade quickly for the precipice ahead will already be at my toes. I care about the success of Americas children and I think I can help by setting an example to go after what you want and second chances.

God is so good. It would be easy to fail at my endeavor. I have finally learned hard work is the key. Wish me success in my new undergraduate degree in engineering and say a prayer for me!

Monday, February 10, 2014

Little Things Count

Even when I feel most at fault, Our Lord answers little prayers before I ask.  Though highly undeserving, I feel my way is paved by His mighty hand.

How can this be when I am as sinful as my neighbor?  God amazes in every second of the day with His Love. His Love is endless and unfathomable. His Love is pure without expectations.  He is just always, there.

The scope of His love extends through time and dimension. I suspect it is this Love that is the basis for atomic theory. Hard to prove, but so fulfilling to recognize.

The Creator's Love is more than the heresies of this world. The Father's Love is faster than light and sound speed combined. Once received and in receiving, the Almighty's Love penetrates to the essence of your future and past spirit.

Because this life is a passing, and short expanse of time, God's Love must be multiplied for those who have built barriers.  It is the duty of those who love Him to love others.

If you find it hard to share your love, when you do, Love will clear all past hurts because of its depth and reach. As you give it, Love will change the makeup of your inner being like a chemical reaction.  You cannot love and be left unchanged. You cannot recognize love and forget.
Love is the light, Love is the little way to your salvation.

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Galactic Catholic Universe Photo of the Day: Louisiana

Only a few weeks ago I was enjoying the fall foliage in Franklinton.

And now old man winter rears his head...and icy wind.


Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Wishful Thinking

Everybody starts the new year off with a little wishful thinking.  I wish for a new car, for a new job, for a new place to live, and the list goes on. It feels good to think about wishful thinking before you even make the wish.  "Oh, I know what I will wish for!" or "I can't wait to make my New Year's wish!"  

Wishful thinking is delightful, whimsical and hopeful. Wishful thinking is also better than, greater than, bigger than and faster than the last wishful thinking that happened.  It feels great.  And it's good to start a new year off feeling great!  Wishful thinking inspires the best of us to make good resolutions that can make us feel like winners or losers for at least the month of January.

My favorite wishful thinker from scripture has got to be David.  This psalm writer gave us years of wishes that were in fact petitions to our Father in Heaven.  The petitions from David were sincere and hopeful, much like most of today's new year resolutions.  But in his case the petitions were for God's favor.

Wishful thinking got me thinking about the favor of God upon real people like King David all the way down to Mary, the Virgin Mother of God.  In David's case, we can relate to both his faults and his gains.  Most of us don't have a kingdom to run, but we have some charge over ourselves and the people around us.  His psalms relate so easily to our times of trial and struggle and joy.  He is thankful and triumphant and persistent in his faith.

In the Virgin Mary's case, she had one wish to do that of the will of God.  She might have wished for a nicer ride to Bethlehem, but we'll never know.  She never sinned but only had care of one of the greatest wishes of mankind, that of a savior for the people of God.  She had God's favor and couldn't wish for more.

There are many people that don't believe God exists or that turn away from Him.  Can you imagine the emptiness of their wishes?  Where is the joy or hopefulness for the future? You could say, they will work and earn money for what they want or acquire it somehow.  But those things will never be perfect.

I wish to explain.   God is delightful, whimsical and hopeful.  God is better than, greater than, bigger than and faster than the last time you needed him.  God feels great.  And it's good to start a new year off feeling God!  God inspires the best of us to make good resolutions that can make us feel like winners or losers for at least the month of January.


Friday, December 27, 2013

Adventure and the Call

Wow! What a year! Really, sometimes you need to look at the past as a season of change that may encompass more than the Roman calendar.

This last season of change has taken a few years. It has to do with a calling.   I was called to be a teacher 12 years ago.  Now, not so much.  People ask why the change?  There are so many reasons, but it boils down to: "to those given much, much is expected."  There is more I can do for Christ elsewhere.

My mother may call me a gypsy because I move from place to place often.  This new adventure calls me to stay put and work hard however long it takes.  I am venturing into a new field.  I am not sure if the call is to work hard along the way or if it is for the end result.  Either way, this is the second time I have taken a leap of faith in regard to my future.

I intend to study science. Not to teach it, but to pursue it. In my research I have found various means and ways Our Lord can use me in this field.  I tried to ask for Our Lady's intercession today, but she said "she didn't know cause they didn't have that stuff when she was growing up." Ha, just kidding.

Maybe it is because I am older and possibly less graced that there has been no big bang for this move.  It has been a long meandering road with much hope from my parents that I would get out of teaching.  I feel too, that I may be able to continue a path that my grandmother was unable to fulfill in the 1940s to become a doctor.

I find that more than two of my friends are changing careers at this time in their lives as well. This makes me think we all didn't know what we wanted the first time in our college life.  Jesus is lucky though, it takes time to pay back student loans.  He already had the knowledge to follow God's will.  The rest of us just have to figure it out.

The figuring has been slow for me.  Sometimes I think God may be able to use me despite myself.

Whatever the Creator of the Universe decides , I am sure he will let me know if I keep trusting in him.  The things that are worth fighting for are the true desires of our heart. I feel my years as a teacher have been a true refining of my character to approach the work that He calls me to now.


Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Am I able to say no to other gods?

The readings from Daniel today and throughout the last month are a call to seek and truly know Christ.  I decided to read a few more chapters past what today's readings were.

The book of Daniel is a reference to live life humbly and seek God.  We are blessed to have had the Savior make himself known on Earth, so we have even more to know than King Nebuchadnezzar did.   I read the part about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego and it helped me to see that I am lacking the zeal that maybe I should have.

While, God in His great majesty has the ability to do all things in His creation, we just don't see many miracles like these three advisors experienced.  The thing that gets me thinking the most is the question, "Am I able to say no to other gods?"

In all things we are to seek to know Christ.  But the devil is very specifically trying to get at our souls through various means and ways.  My thought is that the ability to say 'no' to worship of idol things, people and wants is fuzzy.  What can I do to remedy this ability?

Well, not too much. Spiritually, Jesus Christ is the way, the truth and the light. I must move my ego aside to allow Christ to enter into my heart and prepare it for the Holy Ghost and the Father God.

The physical action I take to change is nothing more than kneeling and letting God bring that peace of harmony within that He knows all things, He sees all things, He wills all things for the greater good.

Therefore, if I seek God through prayer, He will right my shallowness.  But I must constantly persevere and recognize the path I have taken in order to right it when it is wavering.

One of the things I think of to say in my head sometimes is, "Lord, please do not let me burn in the fires of hell."  I am not Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego by any way, but their story is amazing in its faith.

It's not the fire so much as what comes before.  The matter of fact statements that they will not in ANY way bow to the idol of gods or to the fear or anger of a king.

Sunday, August 4, 2013

The few and far between friends

I turned off Face book yesterday. It feels good. Something came up that I didnt like so I deactivated.

To be honest, I have been deleting friends that I see with the intention to call them more. While I kept friends who I dont see and live very far away. Face book was becoming mostly adds for me and why cant I just call people anyway?

Maybe I am too fickle but I think there is value in simplicity and deep friendship through talking and being there. Also I would rather be a person of action rather than a passive participant in my friends lives.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Aliens or Zombies?

My week without tv and music is over and I really had trouble turning it back on today.  I walked over to my videos and asked my dog, "aliens or zombies?"

She chose neither and I chose aliens. So we started off the day with Prometheus in all its philosophical glory and slowly made our way to Alien (the first one with Sigourney).

I love it! I even related something theological to the progression of films. Just like the Holy Church tradition and dogma protects us if we follow it, the people in the movie would have stayed alive if they would have followed the rules. But those darn robots with no morals go and get everyone killed. Society is slowly becoming the robot. No aliens that I know of yet.

Friday, July 26, 2013

Singing in the Silence

I turned off my music and tv this week.

It is my last week before school work starts again and you would think I would want veg out. Oh, but I do want to! But I am getting many things done with the opened opportunity to listen to Christ and my list of to dos.

The funny thing is that I still have a random pop song in my head, but I am also automatically singing anything I know to fill the blank time in my mind.
It makes me wish I knew more sacred music to sing. All those latin chants...

My head is not perfectly clear in adoration and I'm sure I'll still squirm on Sunday in the pew trying to find meaning, but I have to tune out somethings, sometimes.

I hope this week helps me to be holier. That is the call of Christ whether in silence or in song.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Galactic Catholic Universe Photo of the Day: Louisiana Nature Scenes


I just found out about the new Louisiana State Parks app. I was excited to downloadit and realize how close I am to a nice little park called Fairview on the Tchefuncte River.

It is so pretty there and I made it there and back while my gas light was on. I am always in need of a connection to God in nature.




Tuesday, June 18, 2013

The Sinner's Scarlet Letter

^^^^ CHARITY ^^^^

I am seriously thinking of getting a letter 'P' strung around my neck as a reminder that my scarlet letter is for my huge pride problem.

If one could have a love affair with pride, that would be me.  Pride manifests itself in so many ways and as the meditation read tonight, 'never forget the devil is on the prowl like a lion waiting to feast."  So true, so true.

But on the OTHER HAND... the meditation also read that there is more grace to be had than sin.  Once again, Jesus Christ redirects from the gaping hole of original sin that leads us, i.e. me<--- astray.="" p="">
Christ states His emphatic, unparalleled, overcoming, all-encompassing love.  Love is a big thing, not a small thing and it is shown in charity.  Unfortunately, many do not know charity and what it really is.  But Jesus Christ lived it.  If only I could hold my tongue and only speak when necessary like the great Son of God.

So much to learn and so far to grow! In the mean time, I did stop at Target to get a 'P' necklace.  They didn't have one.  Maybe I'll just sew an actual HUGE letter on my clothing and witness to my sin as I go.  Or maybe, I'll just try to live what Christ has witnessed too, a life of charity.

Friday, June 14, 2013

Prayer for a Friend

I am not a good writer. I do not practice temperance well. I struggle with restraint. I contend daily with the urge to SAY something when nothing needs to be said. I am at fault. I love Jesus.

Those are reasons why I am compelled to write a prayer. I promised to write a prayer for a friend about various things, but I told her it would take time.  A word spoke to me during mass last weekend and it is the inspiration for the following.

Lord,
Transfigure my interior
Transfigure my exterior
Transfigure my courage
Transfigure my weakness
Transfigure my doubt
Transfigure my sight
Transfigure my love
Transfigure my strength
Transfigure my soul
Jesus,
Make me more like you.
Amen.

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Traveling Meditation

On my nine hour drive today I was thinking of the cross we are called to carry.  If we did compare with others, I think we might see greener fields at first.  But on closer inspection the strength required to carry another's cross might be too much to bare.

Instead of asking 'why do I have to carry this?', the question should be 'How is this going to help me grow into the disciple Christ needs me to be?'

It's okay I think if you have to ask that question many times before you know the answer. Jesus Christ will answer.

And if you are seeking an answer in order to grow closer to Christ then you will definitely gain the strength you need to hold that cross up.

He will make it okay and temper the storm upon you.


Friday, May 31, 2013

Trusting the Possible

I had this recurring dream that I was driving on the interstate and traffic was stopped but I didn't see it until the last moment.

It really started to upset me that I kept having that dream over a period of maybe a year every couple of months.

After about the third time, I woke up upset and decided to reimagine what to do for the next time. So the next time I had the dream I was able to slow down and drive through the stopped cars and a railing and enter safely into the median.

It wasn't until the summer after a cool rainy  night that caused an extremely foggy morning that I was in the exact situation I dreamed about. Only this time, I was going 60mph, a group of Mexican men were standing around the van I was about to smash into because traffic was totally stopped. I ccouldn't see them prior to that because the sun was shining bright on the blanket of white on the interstate.

I knew what to do because God had a plan.  Luckily, the car with a family followed me into the median saving the meandering Mexicans and the family in that car.

God has a plan, it is not for us to know anything but what we need to know. "He tempers the wind upon the shorn sheep."

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Revving up the New Evangelization for the 21st Century

Today I had the pleasure of attending a talk by Scott Hahn.  I happened to be in town and called a friend to say hello, when she told me about the speaking engagement he had at a local church parish.

I want to say, only in Louisiana would you have a random sighting of Catholic Theologians.
If you look at Hahn's schedule, he visits many other states, but I love my Catholicity in Louisiana.
Hahn talked about aspects of his new book called Consuming the Word. It sounds like a really great read, if only I had time to get to The Lamb's Supper.

In the talk, the main thing that he spoke about was the characteristics of the new evangelization.  Hahn suggested the best way to share the gospel and the fulness of the Catholic Church is to share your personal experiences of Christ in the Church. This is always going to be the most charitable method and allows the Holy Ghost to do the hard work of moving hearts to God.

If your not into reading books, then I suggest checking out the Word on Fire youtube channel.  Father Robert Barron has a great way of explaining things.  Dr. Hahn is shown in some of the videos as well.

Monday, May 20, 2013

Feast of Saint Bernardine of Siena

I wish I could have known Saint Bernardine. There is a great aesthetic of the Franciscans' that is visible in their deed and dress.  It's as the law of Jesus is worn upon their habit.

The law of Jesus is the command to follow his example and the live by his action of presence and gift of self.   In today's gospel Jesus says to pray. Therefore, to have your petitions granted, pray. Saint Bernardine suggests that one's prayers must be 'necessary for salvation' and that this was an understood aspect.  But taking into account the weakness of man to know what is necessary for salvation, how can we atone for our ignorance?

Jesus would say, "pray."
  

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Gallifreyan Reminders

Dr. Who has really been a great show this season.  I don't usually watch a show ritually, unless it's really good, and this new guy plays a very cool Dr. Who.

Tonight's season finale episode was a reminder of how Christ calls us to save others and how one man or woman can be the instrument of that cause.  By save, I mean the call to love others.

It was really cool that Clara sacrificed herself with knowing she had done it before.  Flip that around to you.  Christ sacrificed himself.  We know it and we can join him by dying to self.

There is no flashing light to jump into and then be found by Dr. Who again.  There is a long arduous journey that fires both good and bad things within us.  Just like the premise of the television show, time is the key.  When you know that Christ's Calvary transcended all time, then you can admit your sufferings are conjoined with his.

I needed a good reminder to be outside of myself these days.  It is easy to talk about and write about, but difficult to live.  Start with prayer for others and one day you may be called upon to jump into time to save another soul with two hearts or just one.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

How many cacti does it take to screw in a lightbulb?

A cactus let's everybody know it's a cactus.  And people still get pricked.

A Catholic doesn't always let everyone know their a Catholic.

That's why it's surprising to have people comment when you tell them your email address with catholic.org and they ask if your a religious person. Are people so blind to faith that they cannot see everyday people practice their faith too?